So I have a renewed sense of HELL YEAH!
It’s come to me in a few different forms since last I blogged. Let me break it down.
-Deana’s Educational Theatre. OK so I have always been grateful to be a part of this since I was hired into the company in 2008. But 2011 in particular has been really important to me. I have done many “Yellow Dress” shows, as many other actors in the company have as well, and I am amazed at the courage and strength of so many women I have met throughout New England this year. They share their stories with me and others they trust to seek help, to feel better, etc. To me, that is the most joyful part of working for DET. We help people to sift through their fears and stories to become stronger people, and to me, that is one of the best things you can do in life. SO HELL YEAH I love that job! And HELL YEAH I am making a difference!
-DANCING. Okay. So I haven’t had any formal training in about 5 years. So when my boyfriend started suggested things we should try together, I was a little surprised when he suggested dancing. (Note: He’s in the army. I KNOW he’s amazing, right?) Looking back, I loved dancing in college. We usually had three classes a week from 2 hours anywhere to 4 hours a day. It helped me relieve stress, feel confident, and of course, stay in shape!
To be honest, I wasn’t good at dancing at first. I would see all the steps and freak out and try to count and my brain would fry and I would fall over my feet. It literally got to the point where Christine, our dance instructor pulled me aside and said “CASEY. STOP thinking. Stop. Just feel it.” That was at the end of the year. So when I came back Senior Year, I remembered her words, and I guess she was right. Muscle memory kicked in and finally I could dance without thinking.
Anyway, back to the present. My old fears started kicking in. But I couldn’t say no. So I said, “PSH, sure boyfriend, let’s take lessons.” Panic started simmering below the surface, but I held it at bay. After the advice of another dance instructor, Miss Jean, I decided to do what she said…”Let Go, have fun and let loose, you’ll be fine!”
Well. We went to our first dance lesson with KATYA and oh my goodness whaddya know I knew what to do without really thinking about it. She showed us the moves, and we were able to do them.
SO HELL YEAH I DO REMEMBER HOW TO DO…STUFF!…LIKE DANCE! SO THERE…ME!
Back on set. Not that I haven’t been on set. I just haven’t done background in some crazy amount of months. So when I saw all of my old friends (and new friends!) on set of “Here Comes the Boom,” I was so happy! I love hearing about what everyone else is up to in life.
But on set this past week, I had some interesting moments of clarity and well..what I like to call “HELL YEAH” moments. Here is a sampling:
One person said to me, “Casey. Keep doing movies. Okay?” as we were walking outside after wrapping. I fumbled with my glasses, shoved them on my face whilst walking to the shuttle and said, “Yeah, okay!” And he said, “Just keep doing it. You’re gonna make it.”
Totally out of the blue and it was just the gas I needed to feel even more empowered and ready to kick ass.
Another friend of mine was talking to me about auditions and the biz, etc. And he said, “It doesn’t matter. It never matters. Everything you need to succeed is in you. Don’t label yourself.” It was the strangest moment because I realized that even though I consider myself levelheaded and able to handle auditioning, I have still been in the mode lately of judging / grading myself with auditions. NOT ANYMORE! Another crystal clear moment for me. He also said, “Remember, we’re all the same. No one is better than you, we’re all equals. You can do anything you want.”
Now these particular quotes may seem like the typical “Go get ’em, sista!” type quotes, but to me they meant a lot. I really believe that I needed to hear these encouraging words this week. Just what I need to keep pushing on.
In regards to my yellow jacket and purple sunglasses, my friend Jim Powers said to me, “Casey, you dress like a star.”
To that I say